making any negative event to be positive

I'm trying.... trying what I put on the title of this entry.

I've been practicing my piano quite hard since the quake occurred, I guess. I don't know why. No I knot why. Because, I want to forget something negative. I want to ignore something unhappy. I don't want to see the sad scenes on TV, newspapers, and so on.

The situation with the nuclear plants in Fukushima has never been seemed any better.  Every time new information reported it makes everything worse.  Now it seems our government and the electric company intendedly has been hiding some very important information which is crucial and bad.

Today we felt doomed as we watched the documentary program on NHK about the private research project by some nuclear specialists for the past two months. We learned that the situation in Fukushima, or perhaps not only Fukushima but also around that area or perhaps in wider areas, has been much worse than we had known it, or we had been informed by our government.

After watching it, I thought... then what?  Yes, I got angry: why the government didn't tell the truth? They were afraid of the panic happening? They were afraid of too much worse reputation going around?  They were afraid of losing trust?  Then I thought.... if I were living in that area, and the government told the truth to us, would I have believed them?  I wouldn't say so.  I wouldn't have believed them and would have remained there with the personal property, with the pets, with the beautiful nature, the wonderful home town. I don't know what would be the best solution for this very very difficult questions.

Where are we going?  "we" means not only the people living in the area, but also all Japanese people, also all people in this planet.  Where should we be going? What should we do about this?


I might be escaping from something I don't want to think about by practicing the piano, by singing, by being into music, by enjoying eating good food, just for now, then what?  Life is short.  It's true.  But we have children.  They are not our own children but children of the earth.  The earth should be going on and should be thriving, not only by means of development of technology, but by means of seeking the best way of living our lives on this very beautiful planet.  The blue planet, the lovely earth.


I hope what I'm doing, music, talk, eat, restoring my energy, to be helpful to something, to someone I love.


I don't think what I wrote today makes any sense but I just wanted to record what I thought today, on this very day.



good night anyway... from Osaka, Japan.


Naoko